"Fine..." I scoff bitterly and turn away to the lower deck leaving a wrap of soothing spring water around her waist, tight enough that it dulls the pain a little and leaves out a small orb next to Smighter.
"If you need someone to talk to I'm figuratively right here Smighter." I say which gets broadcasted through the orb.
I throw the Smammer at the orb, not wanting anyone to partake of this, and the orb explodes. "Regran.. PinkPepsi... Aoife.."
"Tess.. You can come out if you'd like.. These are the friends of my past.. Haunting me.." I grimace and cringe as they get closer to me. "Tigerluv.. Starwars... TJ..." The count continues out of my mouth.
"They.. Aren't real.." I say to you, throat hoarse. "MasterSlayer.. Hope... Ice...". the count is almost finished.
I blink seeing other forms and I rest a hand on Smighter's shoulder "They aren't real. Ignore them. They aren't there. It's just the moon playing tricks on you." I rasp.
"I-know they aren't real.. They.. Are just haunt-haunting me." I say, barely able to get it out. "Not knowing if.. They died...." The count restarts, louder. A voice that isn't mine coming from my mouth.
I jump at the new voice and I step between Smighter and the wheel, knowing where we are going, I control the wheel. "Just recover your head." I hiss. "Don't think of them."
"I- can't.. They plague my memories.. And my vision.." I whisper hoarsely, the figures so close I could touch one of them.. I close my eyes, trying to stop the flow of names from my mouth.
I sit alone in my cabin, thinking of everyone in my village who was killed by raiders. I thought of everyone I knew lying on top of eachother burning in the center of the village and myself walking away into the lake, not knowing what would happen. I sigh and scratch the back of my head.
I turn, and kicks Smighter in the shin, shouting "SNAP OUT OF IT!" I growl lowly and turn back around to the wheel ignoring the floating figures.
"I.. Can't........" My real voice drifting off, the voice from inside taking over. The Smammer starts glowing in my grasp an orange bright enough to rival the moon and sun combined.
I get up and crack the door to my cabin and see the figures and hear a strange voice. "Erm? Need me to come out?" I ask slightly nervous.
I am knocked out seemingly, dreaming. I mumble a few words, the inner voice stopping. "Find... TN3U..."
I look at Smighter, "What? That's where we're going?" I ask slightly confused. Thinking of the town and realize I was heading to Assassin's Curse. Not to my task master.
The count starts replaying from my mouth, Smammer dimming. "Delphin. memories.. Dvoraki.. PlaceNameHere.." It keeps continuing in a loop for a while.
I grab Smighter and push him down onto the floor and I lean down beside him. "LoneStar. Bring him out of the moon light. It's driving him insane." I turn back to the wheel and continue on the way.
I pull him away and to his bed. On order. "In ya go...take it easy. Sleep." I say in a hushed whisper, seal the door and go back to Tess to make sure nothing affects her.