Ok... Now things have got me sad She dont even answer my calls I swore she'd live forever But then abandoned the cause! Its like life hates us And wont even let her live And no matter what we spend It just wants us to give!!! Ive given my all. I've donated my life to it I cried when mom hurt Donated shirts cuz she's lucid But life's no longer clean And this rap has stained my hands I thought rap was the one But moved on to better plans! I thought I was the man Cuz I dumped all bank accounts I mean, rap paid my bills Was the ONLY one I'd think about! Rap promised the world But delivered a little girl My pearl is now Destiny And my legacy is plural! Cuz I got a son from it... And hes got that tongue too And he looks like me Hide ya daughters & ya wife too! Rap has done its job But now its on to the next one I remember being 16 And thinkin I was the best one! But there was 16 stitches And Static was born from it My mom aborted me But hip-hop was her stomach!! I refused to die And swapped hands til wanted My foster mom took me in And showed me a woman! She taught me respect And a lot about humility She taught me about people And would hum rap melodies! She said Id break them hearts But never mentioned my broken Never mentioned the scars Or living hard & weed smokin! She did teach me things That I apply to my kids And I miss her every day I thank God that she lived!! But shes gone now And rap seems to be slippin And all I can think about Is drugs and women! I try to ease the mind And remember I'm a writer Then I remember my outlet Was the Freestyle Cypher! So dump all emotions And write and deal with it But on cold nights like this Even pills cant help lyrics! I miss you mom God just took you away You was only 39 When I witnessed ur grave But I lived with ur pain And realize ur safe now No more struggling for breath the clouds hold you safe now! I need ur guidance Mom, I need myself a hug I need you to look down And be proud of your son?! I need a few words So please recite from ur bible Please re-ignite my life And re-teach me survival! I know you dont drink But im takin shots for you Not running from the cops Graduated college for you! Mom I got a good job But im tired all the time And this rappin didnt work But worked hard just to shine! You told me not give up And just "finish ya goals" But mom, I did that And I did it on my own! Please just look for me And keep an eye on these kids You only saw one of em But the both of em would give... Anything to have you back My daughter talks about YOU! I guess in 50 years She'll watch over me... like YOU! Sleep well, beautiful lady. We'll see you soon.