Well, I guess after our commotion, slight derailment of a thread yesterday and a bunch of messages I received asking what was going on its obvious and at this point public that me and Melissa are having problems. I'm not here to further increase the drama, but to apologize to Melissa for doing things that she had clearly voiced her distaste against and to save face in front of the forum community. Our problems started on Saturday when I told Melissa I was interested in going to go to my brothers 21st birthday party, which resulted in her getting extremely angry that 1) I would rather spend my time with my family than with her, which isn't true, at all and I would rather be with her more than anyone in the world, 2) I would be around drugs and alcohol which she hates, and 3) That I would be around other women at the party. After telling my brother about the situation he told me to just go and not tell her which seemed like a great idea at the time. Once I got home from the party and was talking to her she could tell I had been drinking that night and I admitted I had gone to the party. She immediately disconnected and refused to speak to me for over 36 hours. On Monday she told me that she had met up with her ex boyfriend because I wasn't loyal to her and that she wanted to end the relationship and get back with her ex. I pretty much broke down crying and apologizing to her that I went to the party and would never talk to my brother again if she would forgive me and we could go back to the way things were, to which she responded she would think about it and let me know tomorrow. Tuesday is when things became really dramatic and really started to hurt me, she began to send me insulting messages and telling me that I wasn't trustworthy, that I love my family more than her and we can never be together because she isn't #1 to me (again, not true, I would rather be with you than anybody else), and that I couldn't even do small things she asked me like not going to the party. I responded to all of these messages by apologizing and trying to convince her what she was saying is false, that I could follow her directions, that I loved her more than anyone in the world, and that I would never do anything to hurt her. A few hours after the messages stopped she began to rant about me on a thread which was almost immediately deleted by Drgn as it contained embarrassing/personal information about myself (If anyone have SS's of what was said I ask that you please honor my wishes and delete them, or at the least not repost them). At this point, I'm tired of fighting and I made this thread to let people understand the situation I'm in better, and most importantly, again, to apologize to Melissa for what I've put her through by not doing what she asked of me, not having my priorities in order, and most importantly for betraying her trust and not being honest with her. I love you and just want to go back to the way things were.