It's excelent Ari. that's a book I will definately b buying. Makes my book sound completly lame. *sigh* lolz
I layed on the couch drinking the warm strawberry milk. Mom made me some warm waffles to go with it, I loved this day so far. Mom did things I loved even though I didn't ask at all. She sat with me on the couch asking how things went with Lucas and I. I told her about how he takes me to the movies and takes me out to the fanciest resturants in town. When he asked me to be his girl friend officially, he bought me flowers and wrapped his arms around me to give me our first kiss. When Declan and I kissed for the first time, we were walking on yhe beach in the night and I was wrapped in his arms and we were just talking. Than he leaned in and kissed me passionatly on my lips. I remember his lips being so soft and smooth. Our kiss turned into a makeout, I can still feel how smooth and soft his lips felt and moved across mine. The day he died I cried the whole day in my room, same with the following next day. It's been a year since he died and I still cry uncontrollably. I just loved him so much, he was made exacly for me. And I could never replace him.
The next day, Monday. I hated Mondays pretty much everyone I know did. I was driven by Lucas into school once again that day. He kept asking questions about how it felt to have somone else inside me, and if I still had feelings for him. "Well, everytime I hear his name, my spine starts to have a certain...tickle. Also, it's like I can feel my heart starts to like...sizzle I guess. I can tell you that it's hurts, and it's the weirdest feeling in the world." I say using hand motions for no reason at all. I guess I just felt like it. "Can I ask another question?" he asked looking at the rode with the expression of uncomfortable. I nodded. "Well, do you still have feelings for Declan?" he asked but than I froze. I thought to myself, just tell the truth if you don't know what to do. "I do. I mean, when he left it was an unsespected surprise. Besides I love him but, I know I have to let him go." at that moment somthing hit me. I felt myself heat up again. My heart began to construct that weird feeling again. "Thats understandable." I nodded and ask for him to open the windows really quick. "Are you starting to heat up again?" he asked once again I nodded a yes. "Alex, you have to get this fixed. This could continue forever as much as we know. Besides it could be really hurting you inside." he said pressing the button to open my window. "I know, if only Declan were to come out."
I walk to my locker alone because we were late and the bell had already rang. I open my locker. Fifteen, twenty two, five. I turn the dial two those three numbers and pull, it's still locked. "Aww common I'm already as late as it is!" I say tilting my head back in frustration. I feel light headed, my heart is sizzling, and I'm starting to heat up once again. I lay my head against my locker and than try again a few seconds after. I soon open it and take out my books and quickly stuff my bag into the locker I close it and spin the dial a couple times. I grasp my books tightly and run to class when the hall monitor stops me. "Hall pass?" I flips through my biology book to the last page and take it out. He gives me a signal to pass him. By now there is absoluly nobody in the hallways. I run to Mr. Fletchers room. I open the door and see everybody with their books open on their eyes on me. "Oh! Alex so nice of you to finally show up here in social studies!" he said I whispered sorry and took a seat in the second row to the back. I opened up my book and saw Kaitlin a couple rows in front of me. When the teacher turned around she passed back a note and somone passed it to me. I opened it while covering my book. U seem depressed whats rong? -kailin I took out my pencil when the teacher wasn't looking and wrote back. i promise that i will tell u latr but it involves Declan. -Alex I passed the note to the person in front of me and told them to give it to Kaitlin. When she got it she turned around and mouthed the word okay. I looked back on the teacher than I felt something pound against my chest. I nearly jumped out of my seat. Luckily the teacher didn't see me. Suddenly I couldn't breathe and I started to moan. The teacher came to me and asked if I was okay. Since that happened I couldn't answer all I felt was myself tumble to the floor.