Hey all, just a little back ground info. I'm a former USMC infantryman, 08-12. I wrote this about some personal experiences I had in the Corps. I buried myself again today My stupidity can't seem to fade away Into the darkness I go -A 6 foot undertow Dragging me under cant catch a breath Staring him in the eye death-seems like such a nice guy Ill Give in just one more time It'll be the last I promise, I promise My world spinning i touch the sky Feels like I'm winning but I can't disguise the fear I'm feeling Digging deep, cutting close, im on the ropes, I'm in the scope A Trigger pull that feels so smooth Walking a dark path to find the truth. Stupid decisions seems like I can't listen I try to Pick apples but life gives me lemons Choose the right fork but it's a dead end These problems don't seem to mend Low water bridge and a drainage ditch A flash flood of my own **** I try to swim but i never learned how And No one can tell me now My world spinning i touch the sky Feels like I'm winning but I can't disguise this fear I'm feeling Digging deep, cutting close, im on the ropes, I'm in the scope A Trigger pull that feels so smooth Walking a dark path to find the truth. It's imperative, to break away from this self destructive narrative Writing the story on the run Turning the page before its done Before its done Repeat chorus