~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~NEW~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I don’t have all the words to say what’s in my heart It’s an overwhelming feeling, and I don’t know where to start, I never thought it possible to love someone so much And I never thought I’d long so deeply for your touch Love this strong seems simply too good to be true. But my heart is yours, it belongs only to you. My love for you only grows stronger by the day So many different things about you make me feel this way Please don’t ever let me go, keep me by your side. I’ve been hurt a lot in the past, too many times I’ve cried. So I vow it here and now, to never let you go And do everything I can, to let my love show. FACADE I hide behind a smile and keep my face so still, But buried in my heart are feelings that could kill. I sometimes stop and wonder how people do not see. The depth of the sadness hidden within me. People say the gateway to your soul is through your eyes. But if that's really true why does no one realise? What is it people see in me when they look deep inside? Do they see the tears I've hidden, begging to be cried? No one really gets me, or understands how I feel. People see in me what they want, not what's real. Some see me as a monster or a very fiendish man. They think I try to act as vile as I can. Some people think I am the most arrogant around. So they try with all their might to smash my ego to the ground. But I guess I can not blame them for not seeing through the lies. How could anyone know me when I'm wrapped within a guise. Part of the problem is my skill at using such sweet words. I say things just-so, and leave a lot inferred. My poetic words and calm facade leave a lot unseen. Which is why no one knows what I truly mean. UNNAMED I don't know what to think anymore, and I don't know what to feel. The only thing I understand is the coldness of the steel. There's a knife in my heart, and you put it there. So tell me why in the past you'd pretend to care? I gave my love so freely, I gave my love so pure. I looked you right in the eyes and knew that I was sure. But now I am alone, and it's plain enough to see, You and I could never work, we just couldn't be. And no I am not angry, and yes I am quite sad. I miss you very much and thank you for all we've had. I'm so sorry if I've hurt you, and for anything I've done. It's not that I'm obsessive, I just thought you were the one. So goodluck my dear I hope you're well, and now I'll fade away. I wish things were different, and by your side I could have stayed. The Sailboat The small sailboat floats alone in the harbour But soon the wind comes along, gathering the boat up in its embrace and carrying it away Alone, they are nothing, two incomplete parts of a greater whole Together, they are everything... something bigger than just the sum of the parts And so the wind picks up, and off they travel together; inseparable Where they’re going? It’s uncertain. But it doesn’t matter to them. Nothing matters to them except here, and now. This very moment. This is why they exist. This is what they were made for. The boat giving body to the incorporeal form of the wind The wind giving energy and direction to the small sailboat Ever onwards they travel. Exploring and sharing together And then all too soon dusk falls upon them, and the wind slows, then stops And now the boat is left a lifeless form once more. The sailboat is left in the dark with nothing. Only emptiness. Only Darkness. Returns The Beast is back and born anew, Its eyes glow red; a crimson hue. He’ll shred and tear your soul apart, He’ll rip you open and devour your heart. The Beast is back so now you die. In your final moments it knows you’l l cry. And so your tears provoke it more, Without these tears it’s just a bore. The Beast now comes for retribution, To inflict your suffering is the solution. In his task he stands resolute, You destruction continues until absolute. The beast remains now for all time, Ruining lives for all their crimes. In the end all will suffer. Only purity will act as a buffer. THE BEAST The beast is here, he's back in town; but do not fear, and do not frown. The rage that burns deep in his eyes, stays subtly hidden behind his guise. but soon he'll come on out to play. And then it'll be a grand ol' day. So fear not now, enjoy the times, but soon he'll commit the most heinous crimes. Enjoy the last free moments you'll get because in a week all you'll have is regret. ALONE Here I sit, alone once more. I watched you walk out the door. And now an eerie calm has hold of my soul. My heart now broken, once was whole. But truth be told I don’t blame you. It was far too good to be true. A month goes by, and still alone Hopefully, I call, but you’re not home. A new man is in your loving gaze. And tears now fill my vision with haze. I see your smile, I see your stare... The look you give him so full of care I lost my friend, my lover too. I still love you, through and through. So I wish you the best, and say goodbye. Head to the cupboard for the bottle of rye. Drink away all of my misery and pain, As I stare out sadly and watch the rain. RAGE The rage consumes, it burns so hot; Obliterating rational thought. A cathartic feeling to ease the pain. A hateful obsession in my brain. Hateful thoughts sow vile seeds, And vile seeds grow evil deeds. So now I do these malicious things And revel in all the pain it brings. And in this game no one wins, As I perpetrate these deadly sins. All my hate has opened the door, And now the hate will spread some more. The rage corrupts anything in contact Which just furthers my infernal contract. My heart as dark and black as night I avoid doing what’s morally right. So I stand before you an evil man, Spreading the pain as best I can. LOST When I look into your eyes, I feel lost. I gaze so deep I become trapped. I don’t know why or how this came to be, All I know is that I am lost inside of you. An array of sounds overwhelms me, The sound of your breath, your voice as you whisper into my ear, the beauty of your giggle Your smile captivates my soul, and I know I will never find better than you. I am lost in a sea of emotions, swept away like flotsam as the tide carries it to sea. The current pulls me ever farther from the place I know. I do not fight it. I flow with it into your arms. I am lost... but it is leading me somewhere. It leads me deeper and deeper in love with you. I am lost in the sea of emotions, caught up in how surreal it all feels. I bite my lip and blush, looking away from your eyes. I hope you feel as I do. FEAR The fear has crept into my soul, I do not know just what’s its goal. The fear ... it comes and steals away, All the words that I might say. It leaves me speechless; stunned in place Red hot shame covers my face. The fear will come and get you too, The fear will get the best of you. Not a man alive is immune from fear, And some will even shed a tear. Eventually it comes for us all, And leaves us feeling rather small. But the test of fear is not to run. Stand tall, don’t let it have its fun. Face it with all the strength you can. Face your fears and be a man. Because in the end the fear fades away Your actions decide if your pride will stay. So when it’s time to face your fear, Remember you’re not the only one here. THE BEST IS GONE The best is gone, it’s sad to say, the darker side is all that’ll stay. It was too good to actually be real, and now I have nothing left to feel. The love fades and slowly dies, because of your compulsive lies. Hatred burns hot in my veins, and makes me forget all of my pains. But I won’t shed a tear for you, because I loved what wasn’t true. And now a lesson I have learned, if I love I will get burned. And now the darkness pours from my soul, to fill the gaping wounded hole. I should have known from the start, you’d leave this chasm in my heart. But here I stand as strong as can be, I will not let you get the best of me. And so I write these words for you, of my love that I once grew So now I become a bitter man, it’s all that’s left, it’s all I can. At least these harsh feelings never lie, nor did they ever make me cry Which is more than you can say, but that’s alright, I too can play. Here comes the beast from within, and in this contest you can’t win. You have ruined what once was pure, a love so complete, so very sure. So in its place all that now remains, a vile beast free of moral chains. YOURS Back before this had begun When we first met I tried to run And then each day you tried anew To make me see that special you Everyday I’d run away And you’d come back day after day Now over time your words came true I slowly saw that side of you And then you opened up some more But still I tried not to adore But once again you did persist And harder it got to resist And yet I held stubborn as can be A loving person just is not me But these words you didn’t believe And still my heart you worked to retrieve Then I saw you were too sweet to ignore And over time I wanted you more So here I stand craving affection My heard wide open to your inspection Shedding tears of joy as you lay claim Your love’s so special can you give me blame? And now I wonder is it really true, Do I really belong to you? To my soul you opened the door Now I am yours, forever more. And what more else is there to say? Forever by you I will stay. We are soul mates, you know it’s true My heart is yours, I belong to you. MINE No one loved me, no one cared. Isolation left my judgement impaired No one to hold me, and make it all right So I hardened my heart and learned how to fight Only my tears to cushion the pain Every night in bed they fell like rain And everyday I tried to cope Searching desperately for a sign of hope And then one day I suddenly snapped As if from the heavens the thunder clapped And there I stood, I was born anew The new feelings I had were too good to be true My heart was now filled with nothing but rage It was like a beast was released from its cage When others hurt me they thought it okay But now I hurt them and they didn’t like it that way No one took the blame for what they had done They turned in fear and started to run But they could not escape from Karma you see It didn’t matter if they tried to flee And from the Darkness you suddenly came And it was to my heart that you laid claim All of the anger you purged from my heart. Thanks to your love I have a fresh start. You say you love me; it shows in your eyes. You speak the truth, no deceit and no lies. The problems I face are now in decline From the joy that I feel in saying you’re mine. Tears of joy now streak my face, I finally feel I have found my place. It is with you that I surely belong Even after I sing my swan song I’ll love you and cherish you until the day that I die I swear to you now, I won’t make you cry. My heart is yours, that is the truth. These words I write are meant in sooth. Forever more, my heart is yours. You’re the only one my heart truly adores And as of this day, your heart is mine. And I praise it’s true our fates intertwine. TIME Time moved on and people changed, because of which I’m now estranged. Life moves on and passes by, and here I stand asking why. People come and people go, so why do I seem to move so slow? Nothing ever stays the same, for which I am not to blame. But to my heart I do stay true, and will not change for even you. I am myself, and ever I’ll be. I am not what you make of me. And people care for what they see, and hope that’s what it is I’ll be. So in the end I’ll be alone, but this fate I won’t bemoan Of my fate I am quite stoic, to change myself I am so phobic. I will not bastardize who I am, I’m not a sheep nor a lamb. So I stand true despite the sting, because a man is his own king. So time moves on and people pass me by, but I will not tear, I will not cry.