Week 1: joined an awesome clan today. They're hardcore and they're teaching me how to war properly. I've always been an EB fairy, but now imma war hound. Week 2: lots of awesome players in this clan and the leader is a 4 year veteran. He takes his war very seriously though. But talking to peeps in this clan helps me with depression...they make me feel good. I really like the two owners/leaders. Week 3: they're making us change our builds to hybrids this week. ie: have to put up towers. Feeling a little edgy bout this as I don't have the gold to change builds right away. Missed a few wars. Week 4: we lost a war and the commander told us she doesn't wanna war with us ever again. Says we make her hate kaw. Hmmm...didn't make me feel very worthwhile. But I'm sticking with them. Btw, had to change our builds again, towers are bad now. Week 5: we won a few wars, but then lost one and the owner flipped completely out. Told us how useless we all are and he quit the clan and left the Pal group too. His banner say he'll farm anyone who posts there. I was gonna quit too, don't need the stress, especially with my condition. Week 6: owner came back but made a deal with another clan. Thing is, this deal benefits only the top 10-15 people in this clan. As my stats are too low, I'm unable to war with my friends. Apparently towers are good again but I haven't the gold to change builds for the third time in as many weeks. Feeling quite depressed about kaw atm. Week 7: the clan is a graveyard. Only thing in CC is reports on hitting the clan farm. People are turning on each other and tensions are high. A few very good/ nice people have left the clan because of it. I think the owners/leaders actually hate this clan, coz they certainly act like it. I am NOT enjoying kaw at all. Week 8: leader asked for ideas on how to keep the clan together and I was the only person who put forward some ideas. But as soon as I posted them, they were shot down in flames and I was accused of complaining (again). What the hell do they want from us ? Depression is high this week. Thinking about quitting again. Week 9: owner said "I don't give a rats about the people left behind, they can stay and hit skeletor for all I care". I took that personally coz he means the peeps with low stats who have been ostracised from their friends and can't war with them in the other clan. If I can't war with my friends, I don't wanna war at all. Week 10: I left the clan and "retired" to another friends vacation clan. It's so nice to have no stress now. It's meant to be a fun game afterall. Week 11: found a new clan where the peeps are just great. There's even a few old friends from the original clan who have found this new clan of friendly peeps, too. Depression right down. Week 12: just as I was feeling great about kaw and having fun, I get a hate mail from one of the leaders of the old clan saying how "disappointed she is with me" and how much I "personally offended her" and then a whole bunch of sarcastic remarks saying "thanks for the loyalty and friendship" etc. Doing her best to make me feel as bad as possible. Why didn't she ask me why i left or even show any care at all ? Depression rears its ugly head again and I feel like crap. She got her wish. Week 12.5: got some nice pm's and wall art etc from people who do care and I blocked the hate mailer so hopefully I won't hear from her again and am hoping they really just have a good look at themselves and how they act to their so called family. Depression abated...for the moment. Thankyou new clan. You da best.