I'm gonna start of by saying my life is boring..... I'm nineteen years old and I have never had a girlfriend. I have never kissed a girl. Also I have no friends. I know people in school, but I prefer to hangout by myself. People think I'm social, but in reality I prefer not to be social. Over this summer I gained 20 pounds. (When you look at me you won't believe that I way (180) pounds. [People say that I'm "Skinny"] Most girls I know find me attractive. But I haven't met anyone that I connected with. When I'm around people I freak out, I can't think straight when people are next to me. But when I tell that I'm shy, they think I'm lying and say I'm the most talkative person in school. Today I started college. And I have great ambitions, but I'm to lazy to do anything. I'm lazy to get into shape. I know I'm babbling about my life but it feels good to let it out. I don't care if my grammar is horrible or my spelling is awful. I just want to let my thoughts out. I'm not even double checking what I wrote.
FYI: I don't know why I'm like this. I don't know why I like being alone. Also I never had stress. I do things that keeps me happy.
Sounds about right from what you have said. Most forms of anxiety come coupled with a strong front, In your case appearing social (it's usually the opposite of the disorder, note that I said usually)
It's all about meeting people dude. You won't find a relationship if you don't look. You gotta step out of your bubble of comfort and say hi. Get her number or something. I hear salty has some good tips for nooblets like you.
Follow these three steps: 1) Stop playing so many video games 2) Force yourself into social situations no matter how awkward 3) Slay hoodrats
That sound like a fun mission. Slaying hood rats globally not for fun, just cuz u can. Spread Your Alien Seed! You asexual gender confused alien hybrid. Help humanity achieve ascension. BREEEEDDD BREEEEEDDDD OKAY THAT is ANNOYING. *runs away*