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Re: R U Ok?

Postby XxX___Mad_Hatter___XxX on Nov 21 2018, 3:08am

Hi all! :)

Just a shout out to all those struggling this holiday season without friends or family.
What ever your situation,
remember to reach out please.
People do care & you are valued :)

My door is always open to anyone that could use a chat or a distraction from their own thoughts.

And remember; your current situation is not your final destination :)

Luvs to all those out there in the Kawmmunity that are finding it hard see the light at the end.

We'll find you. somehow, somewhere, we'll get to you. Just dont give up xx
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Re: R U Ok?

Postby AC__Ur_Sybian_Love_Toy__AC on Nov 24 2018, 7:34pm

Bit of simular situation as another on here. I wasn't diagnosed until 2009 after a failed suicide attempt.family member found me in a coma 3 days after I attempted. I went through several diagoses until I found a counselor I could open up to. My actual diagnoses is schizoaffective disorder bipolar type, ptsd, borderline personality disorder, social anxiety, and adhd.

Schizoaffective bipolar type means bipolar with episodes of schizophrenia. Meaning I hallucinate while struggling with bipolar depression. Unfortunately I am treatment resistant meaning no current fda approved treatment has any effect on me. I am suicidal most days and no being suicidal doesn't mean you need to be hospitalized everytime.

Adding borderline personality disorder in with that mess is a double wammy. Don't search Wikipedia as it is wrong. Use utube and search "the causes of borderline personality disorder" by medcircle. There are actually 4 subclasses and more being added. I'm classified as discouraged. This diagnoses is horribly demonized due to the fact 1 of the subclasses is volatile and constantly yo-yoing people.

Ptsd i have is from stacked trauma I've experienced one right after another in my life not wAR time. Most don't know post traumatic stress disorder is inability to adjust,cope, and work through a traumatizing experience. There is also ptsd, formerly known as shell shock, from war.

The social anxiety is from ptsd and hallucinations. I won't go into more detail on this at this time.

Unfortunately I've lost all but 2 friends through the years and I have not been able to make irl friends for 3 years. All my family turned their back on me except my mom (she's the only one to bother trying to understand my disorders and what to expect) the rest did what unfortunately is common response and told me to man up and when I couldn't do what they wanted I was ostracized.

Maybe later I will tell more when I feel up to sharing more.
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Re: R U Ok?

Postby IlIIl_IllDonaIdJTrumplII_IllII on Nov 24 2018, 8:34pm

Sadly life gives some all and some nothing. Luck i guess.
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Re: R U Ok?

Postby mellow on Nov 25 2018, 3:43am

the truth is happiness is in your own head, how you percieve ​, believe it is
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Re: R U Ok?

Postby AC-Penelope21-AC on Nov 25 2018, 4:03am

Tbh i don't believe that anything that happens in life is down to luck, accidents happen, if it happens to you, you might think yourself unlucky but that way of thinking will destroy you.

Take for example a person has their car stolen on Friday the 13th, if they are superstitious thay would blame this on luck, or unluck, and they will be constantly expecting bad luck on that day, never seeing joy in anything.
But if they had had their car stolen on Thursday 9th or Saturday 14th they would probably just say 'hey, accidents happen'

Luck is a concept that people use to explain things which happen when there is no other satisfactory reason

If you get run over by a car after seeing a black cat, It isn't luck it's an idiot driving or you not looking as u cross.

Lol i don't know if this even makes sense to anybody, but it does to me
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Re: R U Ok?

Postby AC__Ur_Sybian_Love_Toy__AC on Nov 25 2018, 9:36am

mellow wrote:the truth is happiness is in your own head, how you percieve ​, believe it is

This is the b.s. spouted out that contributes to the stigma of mental health. You think people want to feel the way I do day in and day out? And it doesn't just effect moods, it has physical effects too.

Would you say to someone who has seizures " it's how you percieve it is why you have seizures?" No you wouldn't because they didn't ask for it nor can they control them without medication.

Maybe you should do research before you spout out this nonsense. I was born with 2 of these disorders and I sure didn't ask for them.
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Re: R U Ok?

Postby IA-CrazyRuggy on Nov 25 2018, 3:07pm

mellow wrote:the truth is happiness is in your own head, how you percieve ​, believe it is

A far too simplistic view. That might work if you’re having a bad day and trying to look at the bright side. But it isn’t necessarily that simple when it comes to mental health problems.

It’s time to start viewing mental health disorders as you would any other physical problem. I like the metaphor where if you have a problem with your eyes, you get a pair of glasses. Counselling or therapy or antidepressants (just some examples) are like glasses for your brain. The brain is an organ that requires treatment as any other organ would. Why is a physical ailment one that requires treatment but a mental health problem one people should “just get over”? I wish it worked like that but reality is, it doesn’t.

Thank you again, to everyone who has shared your story.
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Re: R U Ok?

Postby AC-Penelope21-AC on Nov 25 2018, 3:14pm

The one that annoys me is
'It's a nice world, see some happiness in it'
Last time somebody told me that i replied
'Yep, go and tell an asthmatic having an attack just to breathe, there's loads of oxygen around'
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Re: R U Ok?

Postby Miyagi on Nov 25 2018, 5:13pm

No I’m not okay . I’m 21 and most the time if I don’t feel like there isn’t enough time in my life to accomplish anything worthwhile then I simply don’t feel useful. Most of the time I’m fine but I experience these waves of nothing that’s near crippling, I lose interest in what few hobbies I have and shut people out completely. When I’m normal or as close to it as I can be I’m overly anxious and prone to overthinking which leads to me trying to avoid situations altogether,it can range from something as simple as going to the grocery store or worse just leaving my room to start my day. Most of the time I force the interaction and I’m left with a self conscious demon whispering low self esteem melody’s into my ear. I have friends but when I’m not ignoring them altogether I’m a total jerk and I don’t know if I’m pushing them away or if I’m actually just unbearable to be around. I mistrust nearly everyone so there are few new social interactions and if there are any I always manage to ruin them with my grimy miserable expression and lack of attention to fashion or style of any particular sort. I’m boring and alone and I have been for 4 years. I’ve dated true enough but so far all I’ve done was treat people well for as long as they interested me then destroyed them emotionally when I leave out of boredom under the excuse that I don’t know my emotions. I feel like a bad person most of the time and I’ve never wanted to be apart of this life really. It has been years since I attempted to harm myself or remove myself from the equation but the thoughts float by every now and again and I just really really needed to vent. I met this girl some time ago and I don’t want to hurt her, she intrigues me but I’ve been out of practice far too long . I feel old....................that was........9 That’s part of me. Do with it as you please
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Re: R U Ok?

Postby AC__Ur_Sybian_Love_Toy__AC on Dec 1 2018, 6:42pm

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